if only?

Keeping myself a thought of myself, have i made the right choice in my life? which path, did it do me good? sounds cliche, but thats why the words goes round and round because it's true. people learn from mistakes. i do know why i'm standing here in this position. the decision i'v made 2 years ago. when i came here. i made a thought that this was good for me. but it ain't stay that way for long. i do stuff, pretty more than anyone else. good stuff, some were not even promising. but i made that way. i made it. and i turn out mostly the opposite way from what i expected.

1 year ago, i decided to divert a bit. it went well for quite long enough but i changed. yeah, people do change. i myself did. it do brings partial happiness but it sorts of taking something back. it cost something for something and we human pay. i miss the old times sometimes but, i done wrong. if only time can reverse or stop so i have more time to give a second thought again. so no segregations like now which i dislike most.

Now, i learnt from my mistake. but i never admit it in a way of physical. but in sense of way in this writing. where i tell my story. i wish i made the decision 2 years ago and never divert but stay put and re-enhances myself. once, my friend told me. that this does not go long. how far my friend is true. i don't know, i can't see whats coming but i can see whats passed.

So, here i am, if only..i never met these people, i never met this place, i wouldn't be here in the first place... i'll lose this if i do. This where my life is about to propagate.